On Holiday

Well, the family and I are going on holiday! Our annual camping trip. I am really excited about getting outdoors again. Sam and Ash are super excited. Our birthday celebration went really well last weekend. If you remember from the last blog, we were concerned about how it would go. There was a CAKE, bubbles, lots of cool presents. I am thrilled.

We are also thinking of trying a new church finally. It is called Calvary Chapel. Hope it works out. I have felt here lately that I have not been close to God like I want to be. Not that church will do that, but it could help! Harmony and I are just really interested in getting involved with a loving group of people to hang with, pray with, and serve with. I feel a real need to be involved. God is so amazing and I love to share with other people, but sometimes I feel intimidated, sometimes I am just lazy, and sometimes, I feel out of place. But I still feel that need. I have a few friends at work that I like to talk to about this kind of stuff. They can relate. There is a real need for God in a lot of the peoples lives that I work with. But it is awkward at times to talk God, faith, and salvation. Maybe because I feel insecure about my own faith sometimes. But most of the time I am confident in it. This is something I am working on. I always seem to be working. I do know that God triumphs over my flaws and lays things out in plane English so that I can understand. It is up to me to catch it and grab on to it. I know that he loves me.

What God has been speaking in to my life here lately is to not struggle sooo much to try being good. He has made me good, and in that, I should listen to what he has for me to do. I could spend all of my life in ministry being very successful and prosperous, but miss the whole thing that God wanted me to do the whole time. Right now in my life, I am called to be a father to my young boys, and a husband to my smokin hot wife. I will just be patient and see what God wants me to do next. I still have a lot to learn though. My heart is in the right place most of the time. But, while I am working out all the kinks, I will certainly move forward with anything that called wants me to do. What I have learned is that if you wait until you have fixed all that is wrong with you, which only God can do that as well, you will never do what God wants you to do. He doesn't want you to wait, he wants your heart now! We will NEVER be perfect, but God loves us anyway. He wants us to live big lives, but that doesn't mean having a lot of money, or Fancy cars, or 60 inch plasma screens. He wants us to love, to give. Give up your self. Give up your possessions. Give up your wants, and let God move you. This doesn't mean to totally and literally give it away, it means to not focus, think, or lust over these things. They are not the source of your life, God is.