Well, it will soon be 09. I don't know what all will happen. I am planning on getting through the first semester back at school. I am planning to be a teacher. I don't know what struggles I will have. I don't know what roadblocks, potholes, or traffic jams I will go through. All I can say is that I am ready. Bring it on. I am thouroughly excited and dreaming of the day I start teaching. Though I know it will not be as easy as I might think. These are individuals that I will have an influence on, I hope, and possibly make a difference in their lives. And I am sure that their lives will influence mine. I desire to work with inner city (at risk) kids because, I feel that I can connect with them. I just really feel called to this position for some reason. Please pray for me.
So, what are goals? I feel that in order to do life adequatly, you have to have goals. Even if you do not nessecarily reach them, they can propel you into something that you would have otherwise missed. I think about Jesus and the goal set before him. He was determined to carry out this goal, or call if you will. He did not let anyone, or anything stop this. Peter tried, Mary tried, even Satan tried. But through it all, he focused on what He was called to do. I know, you have heard this over and over and over. So have I, but it grips me. It keeps me coming back to the Gospel. I think the reason why is because this is the model set before us. We have to try and reach or attain our goals. That doesn't mean that their won't be obsticles along the way. That just means that we have to be alert and on point. So many beat themselves up everyday, because they do not feel they are good enough. So many Christians are the same way. The truth is, we can never be perfected and we can never perfect by ourselves. It is constant and persistant prayer, meditation, and relationship with our Father. I believe that has kept me going through all of my shtuff. We all have issues even if we are perfectly moral. If we don't have Christ at our center, we have nothing. I know some perfectly moral non-christians and some not so moral Christians. So there is no getting around it, we need God! You can't be perfect. You can't be without flaw or blemmish. But the One true Creator who is above us all loves us! He wants to wash away our sins, our imperfections, and our flaws. But we have to come to Him. We have to trust Him in faith. We have to hear His voice in our Hearts and minds. This is how we will prevail through lifes trials. My hope in this his that God will touch all our lives deeply and divinely.
Peace ><>
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Security
The World as we know it, or thought we know it sure has changed. Not only from a economic standpoint, but ethical, environmental, social, educational one as well. It is always changing, rapidly at times. I remember growing up and it was the norm to be outside all the time. All the time. And I remember how everything was cheaper, life felt secure. But it never really has been. Life is full of surprises and calamities. Just think back to November 11. Many people, I am sure, were not expecting to loose their lives. Those loved ones who survived were not expecting to loose anyone either. So what are we trusting in.
Are we trusting in our money? Is it not made of paper? Paper can burn. It can also be taken from us. Sometimes legally. Is it digital? Well, we all know that computers are not indestructible either. Are we trusting that if we have many possessions that we will be secure? Is it that if we have acquired all that we want, we can be fully satisfied for good?? There is always something new. Are we putting our security in our friends?? Well, we all know that friends can definitely let you down at times. So what is it?
I know that these questions are all so cliche, but there is truth in this. If you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, you have security. For some, it takes a while. Others, instantly can feel the difference. Growing in faith in Christ for me has been the only thing that I cling to when times are rough. But also when times are great. I have found that the more trust I put in God, the more I feel at ease. He centers me, and comforts me. Even in the toughest times, he is my rock. All he wants from us is ALL of our worship. We were created to worship. Some worship nature, some money, some sex, some cars, some spouses, some children. But we were meant to worship God and God alone. I myself have had to check my heart at times to see what my idol has become. I have lusted over many things that I have had to turn from and turn back to God. But I always come back to worship Him. And I have learned to be content. Sometimes we get so caught up in success that we do not appriciate what we have.
I guess the point I am trying to make in all of this is that to truly worship The Creator, we must let go of some things. Only if we trust in God can we have true security in our lives. We must go to God in prayer and repentance and give our hearts fully to Him. If we don't, we can easily fall away. I am afraid most Americans are in this boat. It is time that we look to God for security and nothing else. I really believe that we can learn a lot from the under ground church in China and Russia to really fully understand what it means to truly surrender our lives to God. If you are reading this and you are not a believer, I hope that you will really consider pursuing God and starting a relationship with Him. It will change your life. If I offended you, good. I love you. And God loves you. I am offended everyday by our culture and by many Christians/Churches. But, I am not here to appeal to anyone, but God and God alone. I don't believe that I am better than anyone, but I am trying to walk the talk. I may fail, but I am trying, and I have a God who loves me and wants me to keep trying. What is your security in???
Are we trusting in our money? Is it not made of paper? Paper can burn. It can also be taken from us. Sometimes legally. Is it digital? Well, we all know that computers are not indestructible either. Are we trusting that if we have many possessions that we will be secure? Is it that if we have acquired all that we want, we can be fully satisfied for good?? There is always something new. Are we putting our security in our friends?? Well, we all know that friends can definitely let you down at times. So what is it?
I know that these questions are all so cliche, but there is truth in this. If you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, you have security. For some, it takes a while. Others, instantly can feel the difference. Growing in faith in Christ for me has been the only thing that I cling to when times are rough. But also when times are great. I have found that the more trust I put in God, the more I feel at ease. He centers me, and comforts me. Even in the toughest times, he is my rock. All he wants from us is ALL of our worship. We were created to worship. Some worship nature, some money, some sex, some cars, some spouses, some children. But we were meant to worship God and God alone. I myself have had to check my heart at times to see what my idol has become. I have lusted over many things that I have had to turn from and turn back to God. But I always come back to worship Him. And I have learned to be content. Sometimes we get so caught up in success that we do not appriciate what we have.
I guess the point I am trying to make in all of this is that to truly worship The Creator, we must let go of some things. Only if we trust in God can we have true security in our lives. We must go to God in prayer and repentance and give our hearts fully to Him. If we don't, we can easily fall away. I am afraid most Americans are in this boat. It is time that we look to God for security and nothing else. I really believe that we can learn a lot from the under ground church in China and Russia to really fully understand what it means to truly surrender our lives to God. If you are reading this and you are not a believer, I hope that you will really consider pursuing God and starting a relationship with Him. It will change your life. If I offended you, good. I love you. And God loves you. I am offended everyday by our culture and by many Christians/Churches. But, I am not here to appeal to anyone, but God and God alone. I don't believe that I am better than anyone, but I am trying to walk the talk. I may fail, but I am trying, and I have a God who loves me and wants me to keep trying. What is your security in???
Friday, December 5, 2008
The Secret to my Success
What defines success in your life? Is it how many toys(cars, guitars, clothes, ipods, etc...)you have? Is it your job, finances, status? Or is it making it through life with no cheating, no fighting, no problems? Marriage, kids, friends do they make a person a great success? How about a person who works so hard all their life, provides for their family, takes care of those in need and has no debt, retires and lives the rest of their life in a retirement community?
Here is another scenario; a person works hard all their life and doesn't ever make it to that really nice neighborhood, gets jumped ever other day on their way to work, gets made of because of their looks, clothes, hair cut. They never seem to get ahead, but perseveres through it. Everyone rips them off and they don't even know it. They try and try to get people to like them and it is no use. But they are content. They love God, they love their family, they love their community. They go out of their way even doing small jobs and chores around the neighborhood that no one knows about. They like being in the back ground. What if also they had an incurable decease and no health care to help pay all the medical bills. But through all of this, they are so filled with joy. They are totally satisfied. Does that sound like success to you?
I am not saying that having things are bad, but what I am saying is, we have such a high standard for success in America, sometimes I think that we have forgotten to enjoy the little things. The 99 cent menu, the tiny $20-$50 dollar check we get in the mail, getting a 50 cent raise. We are sometimes all too focused on the future that we forget to live in the present. It is easy to fall into this. Again, I am not saying that making a big check is bad, I am just saying, it has become our Idol, our God. We worship money if we are not careful.
Success by our definition as humans has made us selfish. I myself am trying to change this about myself. I am not saying that we should get lazy and let things go, but I am not going to live my life chasing this "American Dream" when my mission on this world as a Christian is to die. Die to myself. Becoming meek, selfless, caring, loving, compassionate, humble, content and giving. Of my heart, my time, my MONEY, my things, my house, my life. What would it look like if the Church, the World, would become like Christ. What if we all gave up on being all about OURSELVES and actually poured out all of this upon each other? I may not be a success to the World, but I feel I am. Not because I have reached a goal. This is not my life. It is not my money, it is not my car, it is not my house. It is all Gods. The God. I know not many will read this, but I felt this was on my heart. I pray that it will speak to everyone. That it will speak to me. That it will speak.
Here is another scenario; a person works hard all their life and doesn't ever make it to that really nice neighborhood, gets jumped ever other day on their way to work, gets made of because of their looks, clothes, hair cut. They never seem to get ahead, but perseveres through it. Everyone rips them off and they don't even know it. They try and try to get people to like them and it is no use. But they are content. They love God, they love their family, they love their community. They go out of their way even doing small jobs and chores around the neighborhood that no one knows about. They like being in the back ground. What if also they had an incurable decease and no health care to help pay all the medical bills. But through all of this, they are so filled with joy. They are totally satisfied. Does that sound like success to you?
I am not saying that having things are bad, but what I am saying is, we have such a high standard for success in America, sometimes I think that we have forgotten to enjoy the little things. The 99 cent menu, the tiny $20-$50 dollar check we get in the mail, getting a 50 cent raise. We are sometimes all too focused on the future that we forget to live in the present. It is easy to fall into this. Again, I am not saying that making a big check is bad, I am just saying, it has become our Idol, our God. We worship money if we are not careful.
Success by our definition as humans has made us selfish. I myself am trying to change this about myself. I am not saying that we should get lazy and let things go, but I am not going to live my life chasing this "American Dream" when my mission on this world as a Christian is to die. Die to myself. Becoming meek, selfless, caring, loving, compassionate, humble, content and giving. Of my heart, my time, my MONEY, my things, my house, my life. What would it look like if the Church, the World, would become like Christ. What if we all gave up on being all about OURSELVES and actually poured out all of this upon each other? I may not be a success to the World, but I feel I am. Not because I have reached a goal. This is not my life. It is not my money, it is not my car, it is not my house. It is all Gods. The God. I know not many will read this, but I felt this was on my heart. I pray that it will speak to everyone. That it will speak to me. That it will speak.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Good Night O' Sleeper
Good night o' sleeper who's thoughts are running wild
For things of the future, and things of the past
For things that are controled and things that are not
In case you forget, the things that are shot
Good night o' sleeper who's life is a mess
Who lies awake at night at things that are not confessed
When life and worries come round once again
When treasures of now seem to be your only friend
Good night o' sleeper as you lay down your head
You can't stop thinking of the new life ahead
With all your misfortunes and losses and such
Can't you believe that your life still has worth?
Good night o' sleeper please give it all away
Cause one day you won't wake up and everything is gray
Your possessions and friends, your clothes and your ends
Have all been left behind to this world full of grins
Good night o' sleeper you don't own a thing
Your father is the only banker you need
To store your treasures in heavenly realms
When you finally move to your new resting place
You will finally realize how lucky you have been
Good morning o sleeper.
For things of the future, and things of the past
For things that are controled and things that are not
In case you forget, the things that are shot
Good night o' sleeper who's life is a mess
Who lies awake at night at things that are not confessed
When life and worries come round once again
When treasures of now seem to be your only friend
Good night o' sleeper as you lay down your head
You can't stop thinking of the new life ahead
With all your misfortunes and losses and such
Can't you believe that your life still has worth?
Good night o' sleeper please give it all away
Cause one day you won't wake up and everything is gray
Your possessions and friends, your clothes and your ends
Have all been left behind to this world full of grins
Good night o' sleeper you don't own a thing
Your father is the only banker you need
To store your treasures in heavenly realms
When you finally move to your new resting place
You will finally realize how lucky you have been
Good morning o sleeper.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
To Be or Not to Be, That Always Confused Me
Hello World, it's me again. Once again using blog to spill my heart, to write down thoughts, and to add to the craziness that is the internet. Going green, wasting time, call it what you want, I just get cramps in my hand from writing on paper so much. So how are you doing World?
There are so many things floating around my head and heart right now. I have adopted two teenagers in the past few months, I have become more involved with my Church and small group, and Harm and I will soon be teachers God willing in the next few years. As much as I have going on, it seems that I wouldn't be bored. But occasionally I am. I tend in those moments to redirect my heart to the Cross. The filthy Roman cross. The Old Rugged Cross. I often wonder if Jesus was ever bored with life at any point. Did anyone ever let him be bored? Nah. He had to get on a boat just to get away from crowds and hustle and bustle. Even then his poor deciples were like "Yo Jesus, there's like a storm out here, what are we going to do?" And in his Jesus manner would get up without hesitation and take care of the problem. I think it was a good thing that he appointed the Apostles because if not, his ministry, Christianity, would cease to exist. Though we know that God had a plan in the works anyway, but you know what I am saying. I think that we all, Christian or non Christian should take time out of every day to get away from everything that causes stress. This recharge is a great release. I like to take the 30 minutes I get for lunch and just sit in my car and rest, pray, and restore my heart for the rest of the day. It really works.
So, my heart in this manner is where is the Power that the Church should be walking in? Paul wrote about the unbelievable power that we have in Christ, those who are His. I have been meditating on Romans 12 and I have had so many confirmations in the last few days about this scripture. Paul calls us to be living sacrifices in our daily lives. We think, in Church culture, that to be more means to be a pastor/elder/head up a ministry, but I think we are missing the point. All through the Bible, we are told that the First will be Last and vice versa. So my point is, we should be seeking to do the things that no one else wants to do, or do things that we wouldn't want others to have to do. I heard this last night from the Village Church in Texas. It all makes since to me. Why do some Pastors/leaders fail? Because they are looked at as the go to guy, or gal. If they don't have a strong support system, someone to do the things that they shouldn't have to do, they are going to break at a certain poingt. This goes for Government, buisness, home, everything. It is easy to look to someone for answers, but if they teach you and I how to solve the problem, then everything would be self sustaining. If the Church would function as the Church, we could have extraordinary power. So, at your buisness, your Church, your home, your political rally, lets all be the hands and feet to solve problems and BE the Solution. If not, then someone will probably Blog about it!!!
There are so many things floating around my head and heart right now. I have adopted two teenagers in the past few months, I have become more involved with my Church and small group, and Harm and I will soon be teachers God willing in the next few years. As much as I have going on, it seems that I wouldn't be bored. But occasionally I am. I tend in those moments to redirect my heart to the Cross. The filthy Roman cross. The Old Rugged Cross. I often wonder if Jesus was ever bored with life at any point. Did anyone ever let him be bored? Nah. He had to get on a boat just to get away from crowds and hustle and bustle. Even then his poor deciples were like "Yo Jesus, there's like a storm out here, what are we going to do?" And in his Jesus manner would get up without hesitation and take care of the problem. I think it was a good thing that he appointed the Apostles because if not, his ministry, Christianity, would cease to exist. Though we know that God had a plan in the works anyway, but you know what I am saying. I think that we all, Christian or non Christian should take time out of every day to get away from everything that causes stress. This recharge is a great release. I like to take the 30 minutes I get for lunch and just sit in my car and rest, pray, and restore my heart for the rest of the day. It really works.
So, my heart in this manner is where is the Power that the Church should be walking in? Paul wrote about the unbelievable power that we have in Christ, those who are His. I have been meditating on Romans 12 and I have had so many confirmations in the last few days about this scripture. Paul calls us to be living sacrifices in our daily lives. We think, in Church culture, that to be more means to be a pastor/elder/head up a ministry, but I think we are missing the point. All through the Bible, we are told that the First will be Last and vice versa. So my point is, we should be seeking to do the things that no one else wants to do, or do things that we wouldn't want others to have to do. I heard this last night from the Village Church in Texas. It all makes since to me. Why do some Pastors/leaders fail? Because they are looked at as the go to guy, or gal. If they don't have a strong support system, someone to do the things that they shouldn't have to do, they are going to break at a certain poingt. This goes for Government, buisness, home, everything. It is easy to look to someone for answers, but if they teach you and I how to solve the problem, then everything would be self sustaining. If the Church would function as the Church, we could have extraordinary power. So, at your buisness, your Church, your home, your political rally, lets all be the hands and feet to solve problems and BE the Solution. If not, then someone will probably Blog about it!!!
Friday, October 31, 2008
Helloween
Well, it is that time of the year again. Carving pumpkins, asking for candy, and dressing up in way over priced costumes that are usually only worn once. It is really a personal Hell for me. In the past few years, I have continually stretched my imagination as to why we even participate in this mindless "holiday". I mean, not only from a biblical view, but also from a societal view. Think about it. We get our kids all dressed up to go door to door asking for something. Is it not that every day we are asking for something? A hand out, another piece of the American pie, a raise, a platform. It is always take take take in life. Besides candy, although very tasty at times, is not all that good for any of us. But what I am saying is, you have all of these kids and people out on the night of ween, and not one kid is asking their neighbors, "Can I do anything for you around your house?" Or, "Do you need someone to talk to you?" Not many kids I know like to share their candy. It is our nature to horde everything. But they are encouraged by the culture. And if we don't change the culture, when will it change? Never.
Which brings me to one of the next major holiday, Christmas. This is for all the Christians out there. What has happened? In the last years, I have totally changed the way I think about Christmas. Especially in the last year. And my family and I are doing it different this year. I have recently learned about the advent conspiracy. www.adventconspiracy.org This is the best illustration of how this time of year should be. Our nation has become gluttonous around this time of year. It has become a case of how many, how much, and how big. Why is it that this time has become more about falling into debt and idol worship over the whole reason for acknowledgement, Jesus? He didn't come here to make us go into debt, but to bring us together and worship God. To die for us so that we would have a chance to live eternally with God. But we have turned it into this big deal about consumerism. The Church is just as guilty to me. But the Advent Conspiracy is aimed to change that, and I am all for it. Instead of buying meaningless gifts for each other, that usually end up in a closet, Craig's list or Goodwill, why not give meaningful gifts and/or time to grow closer in relationship. Also, to give time, money and energy to charities or families you may know that just need a friendship. The World is suffering, and I don't care who you are (Christian or not), we have go to change in order for our World can change. What I am saying is that celebrating holidays the way we do could either have an impact on our community/society, or continue in a downward spiral until, we are so selfish, we won't even open the door for ourselves
Peace and Love
Which brings me to one of the next major holiday, Christmas. This is for all the Christians out there. What has happened? In the last years, I have totally changed the way I think about Christmas. Especially in the last year. And my family and I are doing it different this year. I have recently learned about the advent conspiracy. www.adventconspiracy.org This is the best illustration of how this time of year should be. Our nation has become gluttonous around this time of year. It has become a case of how many, how much, and how big. Why is it that this time has become more about falling into debt and idol worship over the whole reason for acknowledgement, Jesus? He didn't come here to make us go into debt, but to bring us together and worship God. To die for us so that we would have a chance to live eternally with God. But we have turned it into this big deal about consumerism. The Church is just as guilty to me. But the Advent Conspiracy is aimed to change that, and I am all for it. Instead of buying meaningless gifts for each other, that usually end up in a closet, Craig's list or Goodwill, why not give meaningful gifts and/or time to grow closer in relationship. Also, to give time, money and energy to charities or families you may know that just need a friendship. The World is suffering, and I don't care who you are (Christian or not), we have go to change in order for our World can change. What I am saying is that celebrating holidays the way we do could either have an impact on our community/society, or continue in a downward spiral until, we are so selfish, we won't even open the door for ourselves
Peace and Love
Friday, October 24, 2008
No shoes? No legs!
Oh no, my car just broke down. OMG, my cell phone just died! (insert adjective)--My clothes and shoes are so out of style. The list goes on and on and on. We (americans) are all guilty of us at one time or another. We fall into the trap of how bad our situation is. How bad is it really? At times, we think that a certain split second of our time is the end of the world. We think sometimes that our circumstance is unbearable, excrusiating, devistating. We worry about what our next car will be, what our next TV will be (plasma or LCD?). All muscians feel this one; what will be my next instrument? But do we ever stop to think about our brother or sister? What is going on in his or her life? Sometimes, most times, all the time, there is someone who has something way bigger going on that is miles beyond what we are going through. Financial problems, health, family.
I am compelled, astonished, fascinated, and saddened by the way people are treated in other countries, poor countries. Where kids roam the street in search of food for dinner. Or clean water to drink. While our kids just throw something in the microwave, other kids are scavenging. If they aren't they are toting AK 47s around training to be the next brainwashed troops for the government or lack there of. They have nothing to rely on. But, I love the way that some people from other countries smile. You can see on their faces a glimmer of hope, faith and love. I know not all are in great spirits, but the ones who are make me smile. It makes me even happier and more appriciative of what I have. What we have. This country is amazing, but I am affraid that the glits and glammer of what we have is all that most people hope for. Meanwhile, we overlook the greatness that is in our hearts, right under our nose and within our grasp. I hope that I live a life that reflects what I feel rather than doing the typical. I don't have the funds right now to help with global missions, but one day I want to become involved. Till then, I want to locally make an impact whenever I can. I believe in God. He has a plan for all of us. I live by faith, but my heart is for the downtrodin, the weak, the lame, the widow, the orphan, the poor. I have met some very poor people, and their attitude is very similar to that of the wealthy. They think that the good things in life revolve around money, and they want that more than anything. What is the difference because if the wealthy were without their money, some of them, would they not have the same view?
When our love and heart revolves around what we can do for others to help them, to serve them, that is when we can truly see change. Be the change. Until then, consumerism will destroy us. We are all slaves to that which we desire. That is why I think Jesus was trying to get us to live relationally and in unity. The driving force behind money is to buy something. Advertisers try to get us to think our life sucks until we buy their product. We all know what happens after that, it has lost its meaning. I love our country. I am fortunate to live here, that is why I want to use my freedom to help impact someone else's life. To be the Church, the hands and feet. So think about others and their circumstances before we think about what will make us happy all the time. Eventually we may all follow the Golden Rule!
Peace.
I am compelled, astonished, fascinated, and saddened by the way people are treated in other countries, poor countries. Where kids roam the street in search of food for dinner. Or clean water to drink. While our kids just throw something in the microwave, other kids are scavenging. If they aren't they are toting AK 47s around training to be the next brainwashed troops for the government or lack there of. They have nothing to rely on. But, I love the way that some people from other countries smile. You can see on their faces a glimmer of hope, faith and love. I know not all are in great spirits, but the ones who are make me smile. It makes me even happier and more appriciative of what I have. What we have. This country is amazing, but I am affraid that the glits and glammer of what we have is all that most people hope for. Meanwhile, we overlook the greatness that is in our hearts, right under our nose and within our grasp. I hope that I live a life that reflects what I feel rather than doing the typical. I don't have the funds right now to help with global missions, but one day I want to become involved. Till then, I want to locally make an impact whenever I can. I believe in God. He has a plan for all of us. I live by faith, but my heart is for the downtrodin, the weak, the lame, the widow, the orphan, the poor. I have met some very poor people, and their attitude is very similar to that of the wealthy. They think that the good things in life revolve around money, and they want that more than anything. What is the difference because if the wealthy were without their money, some of them, would they not have the same view?
When our love and heart revolves around what we can do for others to help them, to serve them, that is when we can truly see change. Be the change. Until then, consumerism will destroy us. We are all slaves to that which we desire. That is why I think Jesus was trying to get us to live relationally and in unity. The driving force behind money is to buy something. Advertisers try to get us to think our life sucks until we buy their product. We all know what happens after that, it has lost its meaning. I love our country. I am fortunate to live here, that is why I want to use my freedom to help impact someone else's life. To be the Church, the hands and feet. So think about others and their circumstances before we think about what will make us happy all the time. Eventually we may all follow the Golden Rule!
Peace.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Prayer
Oh God, you are amazing to me.
Nothing I can do is better than what you do through me.
You are brilliant, everlasting, all knowing.
Thanks for blessing me with so much even though I don't feel worthy.
I deserve Hell, and yet you have given me heaven.
In my weakest moment, you are all powerful.
I am your son who wishes only to do your will.
Even in the hardest times, you prevail
You cleanse me of sin, you rescue me from persecution, you defend me in trials.
Oh that I would never give up on your grace and salvation.
Though disaster comes my way, I will praise you.
Through troubles and trials, you are my rock.
Please heal my broken past.
Give me courage and strength to face my adversary.
Though this world probably hates me, you will always love me.
I have not seen the torment of others, nor experienced it.
I do not wish to, but if so, you shall be my shelter.
Strengthen my soul through your word and the Holy Spirit.
Shine through the cloudy times in my life.
Lay out my burdens upon the floor of the see and drown them to be no more.
Help me daily to pick up my cross and to show love to a dying world.
Fill my heart with compassion and faith.
I surrender it all to you.
Nothing I can do is better than what you do through me.
You are brilliant, everlasting, all knowing.
Thanks for blessing me with so much even though I don't feel worthy.
I deserve Hell, and yet you have given me heaven.
In my weakest moment, you are all powerful.
I am your son who wishes only to do your will.
Even in the hardest times, you prevail
You cleanse me of sin, you rescue me from persecution, you defend me in trials.
Oh that I would never give up on your grace and salvation.
Though disaster comes my way, I will praise you.
Through troubles and trials, you are my rock.
Please heal my broken past.
Give me courage and strength to face my adversary.
Though this world probably hates me, you will always love me.
I have not seen the torment of others, nor experienced it.
I do not wish to, but if so, you shall be my shelter.
Strengthen my soul through your word and the Holy Spirit.
Shine through the cloudy times in my life.
Lay out my burdens upon the floor of the see and drown them to be no more.
Help me daily to pick up my cross and to show love to a dying world.
Fill my heart with compassion and faith.
I surrender it all to you.
Surviving Self
It seems so easy to fall into self sufficiency in my life. Why is that, is it that I get to points in my life where I feel that I have things figured out? Is it the fact that I am just so brilliant? (Just kidding, I promise) I don't have things figured out, that is for sure. I think that it is because we always feel that we are in the right and that to justify that, when someone does something that goes against our grain, it is easier to point the finger at why they are in the wrong than to look at things from their point of view. This doesn't mean that they are correct, but it helps us not be so self absorbed. Because, sometimes we are not right. This is especially hard for believers I think, cuz we always think that we are right. What is funny is that there are a lot of musicians out there that are not Christians, yet I get blessed by some lyrics that they write. Then on the other spectrum, I think of some "Christian" artists that our writing some pretty weighty lyrics that even would make a believer get born again. I mean, some of the things that are sung are a little unbelievable to me. I am not judging anyone, I promise, I am just bringing up the discussion. I know some Christians who do not listen to anything secular, and that is fine, but some I have talked with act like to not listen to all Christian influenced music is pagan. This is ridiculous to me. Another thing is this; how are we to be reflective of Christ when we shutter to think that things are going down the drain. Examples: loosing your job, not having enough stuff, no promotion, wrecked car, got a ticket...etc. When disaster strikes, what do we do? Fight or flight? Do we try to handle it on our own, or do we reflect in prayer? If God doesn't answer immediately, do we give up or keep trying? Believe me, I have and haven't had this problem in my life. I mean, it is easy to try to handle things on our terms, but in the end I think that patience, prayer, and pressing forward is what works better. Not faster, but better. When someone wrongs us, do we get mad and blow up, or do we try to see things from their point of view? If we do get mad, do we try to reconcile our difference? I think of how Jesus handled the Pharisees when they questioned the way in which he did his ministry. Like when they asked, "Why do your disciples not obey our age-old tradition of washing their hands before eating?" Matthew 15:1-12 Jesus did not get bent and get in an argument, he explained and basically threw it back on them because they were so caught up in customs and tradition. So, I think that from now on when adversity is presented to me, I will try my best to bite my tongue before I ruin a friendship, witness, and or job. Cuz blood in my mouth is better than blood on the floor!
Monday, October 6, 2008
Voting and Gloating
Well, the elections will soon be here and I thought about how to vote, or more like who to vote for. It is hard for me to find someone truly worthy of a leadership role for the US. Isn't it funny that US is the abbreviation for our country? It holds so true to the typical American culture. It is all about US. What is good for US? How will no oil effect US? How will a stock market crash effect US? Have we grown so selfish that we don't care for or try and help all of the others who help support our economy. I have fallen into the trap as well at times. I am not pointing a finger, just pointing out the truth. It is easier to pass by the brokenness of our neighbor in favor of what is comfortable to us or what we try and tell ourselves: "Oh, well they probably deserve to be where they are. Or, someone will help them, that is what the shelter is for. Or, hitting closer to home here, I just don't have the time to deal with their problems, I have some of my own." And Christians wonder why there are so many who do not come to Christ or deny the existence thereof. Again, this has already been said a thousand times over, I am just spilling my heart here. So to get back to my main topic, Politiks. I believe that it is our freedom, obligation and PRIVILEGE to vote for our leader, even if he or she is being handed a script most of the time. It is very important to make a choice although I have doubted that theory for the past few months. Render unto Cesar what is his, but I know that God is in control and my government, leader, savior. But no matter who is elected, if we can't come together as a nation and stop with this US mentality, we will fall to ruin and I feel that is happening anyway. So the next time we go to purchase that new TV, Car, meal, BIBLE, let us think of other ways that we can better serve the overall whole of our nation and our neighborhood/neighbor.
Love B.
Love B.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Growing Up
I just spent the last few days visiting with my Great Aunt and Uncle. (Ann and Jack) They are so awesome. My Grandmother and I went so she could visit. They live down in Winabow about 20 minutes from Wilmington and Oak Island. Uncle Jack has been progressing in stages of alziemers disease so he had some trouble remembering who we were. I was suprised when we got there that his face lit up when he saw me. He remebered me enough to say my name and shake my hand. He has been in ministry a lot of his life and a servant of the Lord. He is very special to me as well as Ann. They are awesome people. It was hard to see him in his current state, but it is a reminder of what can happen in life. I wasn't really saddened but rather impressed with how his wife served him without missing a beat, like there was nothing wrong with him. The power in that was just so amazing and real! I know it is very hard on her, but she has so much grace about her, and she never complained.
This makes me think of how God serves us. With all of our hang ups, and problems, he still loves us. But sometimes we are so concerned with ourselves and what is happening to us, that we forget about who is taking care of us and others who don't have it as good. And like this disease, we can sometimes forget God's name and what He stands for. If we are not careful, we can get caught up in a job, a life, a passion, that we forget what our number one passion should be as Christians. We might not even deserve what God gives us, but he loved us enough to send his son to take on the World's sin if we would only turn to him and away from evil of this world. I don't have all the answers and I don't think I am all that, but I know that my creator is in love with me. He wants me to live a life that glorifies Him. I know that he is in control and that as long as I serve him, I will be fruitful in my work. But things can and do happen in this life that can throw us a curve ball. And we have to be willing to except that and with prayer and meditation thank God for what we do have.
I just hope and pray that we all would live life to the fullest everyday and do what we can to help and serve each other regardless of race, economic class, religion, political possition, or sexual orientation. Jesus told us to love each other as God loves us. This doesn't mean that we agree with every thing in this world, but that we reach out to those who don't know Christ in a manner that represents who and what Christ is. Life is too short and we may miss oppurtunities that could bring many to Christ. If we are not willing to invest, then what are we here for? Why are we Christians? I love you World!
This makes me think of how God serves us. With all of our hang ups, and problems, he still loves us. But sometimes we are so concerned with ourselves and what is happening to us, that we forget about who is taking care of us and others who don't have it as good. And like this disease, we can sometimes forget God's name and what He stands for. If we are not careful, we can get caught up in a job, a life, a passion, that we forget what our number one passion should be as Christians. We might not even deserve what God gives us, but he loved us enough to send his son to take on the World's sin if we would only turn to him and away from evil of this world. I don't have all the answers and I don't think I am all that, but I know that my creator is in love with me. He wants me to live a life that glorifies Him. I know that he is in control and that as long as I serve him, I will be fruitful in my work. But things can and do happen in this life that can throw us a curve ball. And we have to be willing to except that and with prayer and meditation thank God for what we do have.
I just hope and pray that we all would live life to the fullest everyday and do what we can to help and serve each other regardless of race, economic class, religion, political possition, or sexual orientation. Jesus told us to love each other as God loves us. This doesn't mean that we agree with every thing in this world, but that we reach out to those who don't know Christ in a manner that represents who and what Christ is. Life is too short and we may miss oppurtunities that could bring many to Christ. If we are not willing to invest, then what are we here for? Why are we Christians? I love you World!
Monday, August 18, 2008
Where My Peeps At?!!
Well, it is another lovely day here in LA (lower Archdale). The weather is perfect and I am going running after work. I really enjoy being outdoors. Well since the last post, my family and I have been attending Day Star Christian Fellowship. I am actually going to be involved with a community outreach this weekend so I am excited about that. Harmony is going back to school this week. She is almost finished with her associates. Then she is going for her Bachelor Degree. I am so proud of her. The boys will be going back as well next week and our other kids (adopted) are going as well. Later on that.
I have been praying a lot lately and listening to God's voice. I really since a strong pull to continuous outreach in my community, job, and everywhere. I am finding that there are so many opportunities everywhere if we just slow down and humble ourselves to accept them. Most of us search for a big thing like; going to China as a missionary or starting a church etc... But we could miss out on the small things and opportunities to serve and love and connect people to God if we become too proud or big (puffed up). Look at the good Samaritan story. Luke 10:33-35 Out of these 3 men who passed by this person on his deathbed, the non believer who was despised in this culture was the one who stopped to help. The Religious men felt that they had more important things to do for God than to help this one. Or Luke 15:3-7/Matthew 18-12-14 Jesus said that he would leave 99 to save 1. He says that let everyone become childlike in there ways so that not to become self sufficient as well as to have childlike enthusiasm for him. You know, like when a kid gets to blow out candles or open up gifts or if you are blessed like me, have your kid run up to you at the end of your workday and squeeze your neck and kiss you like they had not seen you for years. Have you noticed that when kids ask questions, they truly want answers and sometimes adults just push them away or give them some junk instead of explaining in depth to their understanding of course. But God wants us to truly seek him. To ask with an expectant heart and with childlike anticipation (not childish). That we would seek him daily and not let a moment or situation go by that we could seize to glorify our father. For it is for our benefit that we do so. He loves us so much, we just have to except his love over all else.
I have been praying a lot lately and listening to God's voice. I really since a strong pull to continuous outreach in my community, job, and everywhere. I am finding that there are so many opportunities everywhere if we just slow down and humble ourselves to accept them. Most of us search for a big thing like; going to China as a missionary or starting a church etc... But we could miss out on the small things and opportunities to serve and love and connect people to God if we become too proud or big (puffed up). Look at the good Samaritan story. Luke 10:33-35 Out of these 3 men who passed by this person on his deathbed, the non believer who was despised in this culture was the one who stopped to help. The Religious men felt that they had more important things to do for God than to help this one. Or Luke 15:3-7/Matthew 18-12-14 Jesus said that he would leave 99 to save 1. He says that let everyone become childlike in there ways so that not to become self sufficient as well as to have childlike enthusiasm for him. You know, like when a kid gets to blow out candles or open up gifts or if you are blessed like me, have your kid run up to you at the end of your workday and squeeze your neck and kiss you like they had not seen you for years. Have you noticed that when kids ask questions, they truly want answers and sometimes adults just push them away or give them some junk instead of explaining in depth to their understanding of course. But God wants us to truly seek him. To ask with an expectant heart and with childlike anticipation (not childish). That we would seek him daily and not let a moment or situation go by that we could seize to glorify our father. For it is for our benefit that we do so. He loves us so much, we just have to except his love over all else.
Monday, July 14, 2008
963 Coffee
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Sin, Deal with it.
Well we all do it. We are all born into it. But how do we get out of a life of it? I have struggled with Porn addiction since I bought my first computer. I have been a Christian 7 years prior to that. I have never really had an accountability partner, nor a mentor to show me how to get out of this sin. I revealled my problem to my wife about 5 years ago. Luckily she has stuck with me and continues to love me today. That is not to say in the past 5 I have been rid of my problem. I have had temptations since then and sometimes given in. But I decided that God is more important to me. She is more important to me. My kids and my testimony are more important to me. But I am important to them as well. Especially God.
So why, after all of my shinanagans and mishaps did I keep going back to it? Why does an achoholic keep going back? Why does an obese person continue to binge? Why does a liar continue to lie? Well it is because we are naturally human and BAD. We were born into this World that way, so why do we have this problem? Could someone grow up and not ever have any of these problems? Probably. Will they go to heaven or please God? Not if they do not except Jesus into their hearts. See I have found that we are inherently bad and that until we decied to fully and totally live for Christ, we can not please him. There is only one God and you can not serve two masters. Anything that has power and control over your life is a God. If it is not the God of the bible, it is an Idol. So this could be a number of things even your family. I am not pointing any fingers here cause I am guilty of sin as well.
But there is hope in our redeemer if we repent and ask for forgivness. If we have sinned against someone other than God, we should humble ourselves and seek their forgiveness as well. By the power of the Holy Spirit this can happen. We just have to have faith. I think God allows certain things to happen so that we see the error of our ways and seek the righteousness of his way. If we all will just humble ourselves.
I am still trying to figure this thing out so that I do not allow myself to be tempted to sin. We all know what our weak areas are and need to truly seek God when we are faced with the temptation to sin. But until we make a choice to be done with our old self, we can not expreience the greatness that God has for us. We also cannot be a light for others. So I pray to you, brothers and sisters, seek God daily. Pray, be involved at your Church, repent, stay in the Word daily, have accountabillity and trust in your maker. He is greater than anything in our life and he is the Creator!!!
Peace and Love ><>
So why, after all of my shinanagans and mishaps did I keep going back to it? Why does an achoholic keep going back? Why does an obese person continue to binge? Why does a liar continue to lie? Well it is because we are naturally human and BAD. We were born into this World that way, so why do we have this problem? Could someone grow up and not ever have any of these problems? Probably. Will they go to heaven or please God? Not if they do not except Jesus into their hearts. See I have found that we are inherently bad and that until we decied to fully and totally live for Christ, we can not please him. There is only one God and you can not serve two masters. Anything that has power and control over your life is a God. If it is not the God of the bible, it is an Idol. So this could be a number of things even your family. I am not pointing any fingers here cause I am guilty of sin as well.
But there is hope in our redeemer if we repent and ask for forgivness. If we have sinned against someone other than God, we should humble ourselves and seek their forgiveness as well. By the power of the Holy Spirit this can happen. We just have to have faith. I think God allows certain things to happen so that we see the error of our ways and seek the righteousness of his way. If we all will just humble ourselves.
I am still trying to figure this thing out so that I do not allow myself to be tempted to sin. We all know what our weak areas are and need to truly seek God when we are faced with the temptation to sin. But until we make a choice to be done with our old self, we can not expreience the greatness that God has for us. We also cannot be a light for others. So I pray to you, brothers and sisters, seek God daily. Pray, be involved at your Church, repent, stay in the Word daily, have accountabillity and trust in your maker. He is greater than anything in our life and he is the Creator!!!
Peace and Love ><>
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Face Book
I have just started a facebook page. Please add me to your friends anyone who reads this.
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Friday, May 30, 2008
Blessings and Failures
I was just thinking the other day while I was mowing my yard of how much I love my kids, my wife, and my life. I am truly and wonderfully blessed. It is wonderful being a Dad because you get to share so much with your kids and teach them. I so truly love them and care for them. My wife, well she is just amazing to me. She has a drive about her and a presence that is just so fulfilling. She deeply loves me and I deeply love her. No amount of riches can fulfill my hearts desire as what God has blessed me with.
I would be a liar if I didn't say that I have failed in this life. At times, I have been very disappointing to God, my wife, and I am sure my kids. But with those let downs, they have forgiven me. They still love me and care for me. It didn't justify my actions or lack thereof, but I have trusted in God's love and grace in times of trials and circumstance to get me through it. I have done well and then fallen. Got back up, and fall again. But the one true thing through the whole process is that I didn't give up. I will NEVER give up. God has a plan for me. It is great!! Not "I am a Super Star" great, but a triumphant, blessed, disciplined great. It is not about my works, my devotion time, my church life that I get God's love or attention. But it is my faith in him. My passion to serve, my love for him, and my commitment to do his will. I am not perfect, I am a sinner. But I am saved by his grace alone. He is the love of my life. Though I will sin and fall short from time to time, he is there to bring me back to him. It is his love for me that keeps me on track not what I can do, but what he can do through me. God give me the strength I need to keep pressing forward to do your will and to know that it is not my will, but yours that is done. For all of you who I have let down, or sinned against, I am sorry. I ask for your forgiveness and that we would encourage each other to receive the greatness that God has for us.
Your Brother in Christ,
Ben
I would be a liar if I didn't say that I have failed in this life. At times, I have been very disappointing to God, my wife, and I am sure my kids. But with those let downs, they have forgiven me. They still love me and care for me. It didn't justify my actions or lack thereof, but I have trusted in God's love and grace in times of trials and circumstance to get me through it. I have done well and then fallen. Got back up, and fall again. But the one true thing through the whole process is that I didn't give up. I will NEVER give up. God has a plan for me. It is great!! Not "I am a Super Star" great, but a triumphant, blessed, disciplined great. It is not about my works, my devotion time, my church life that I get God's love or attention. But it is my faith in him. My passion to serve, my love for him, and my commitment to do his will. I am not perfect, I am a sinner. But I am saved by his grace alone. He is the love of my life. Though I will sin and fall short from time to time, he is there to bring me back to him. It is his love for me that keeps me on track not what I can do, but what he can do through me. God give me the strength I need to keep pressing forward to do your will and to know that it is not my will, but yours that is done. For all of you who I have let down, or sinned against, I am sorry. I ask for your forgiveness and that we would encourage each other to receive the greatness that God has for us.
Your Brother in Christ,
Ben
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Five Minute Blog About Nothing
I only have five minutes so here it goes. Today I asked God to protect me. To be my source and my passion in all things. I have faith in this although I am a sinner. I know that his love runs deep, and that until I trust in him, true transformation cannot take place. It doesn't matter how much I witness, give to the poor, give to the Church, how much time I spend in prayer...etc. It matters how much I trust him. I will never be good enough. I never will be strong enough. Though I do try and work to be righteous, I know that I am human. I will make mistakes but I will trust in God that he will speak into my heart transformation and love and will lead me away from temptation so that my endurance will become more powerful than temptation and my will shall be God's will for me. I am finding that God is in everything; the air, work, family, strangers, most Churches and even in my enemies. I love God, and he Loves Me!!! He always will.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Community and Communication
My heart goes out to those in China this week. It is such a tragedy of what has happened. It is very devastating to know that there have been so many deaths, many who were children. Though many children miraculously survived! I hope that we all would consider in some way to help on our end. They are in fact our neighbors and we are called to love them as believers. You know, John 3:16. I have been researching different areas in which I can help through the Red Cross (http://www.redcross.com/) and World Vision. I just pray for their leaders to except our support and help to humble themselves.
This brings me to the topic at hand that has been racing around in my heart. I long for community. I also long for companionship. I get a lot of companionship through Harm and the boys. They are my life. But I desire community with other believers not just to have friends for the sake of saying, "I have a lot of friends." Far from it. Friends can let you down, they can manipulate you, they can deceive you and torment you. But we are to still love them. We are still to care for them and listen and serve with them. The reason I think friends are a good idea is that in times of trouble or trials, they should be there to help. At least good friends. Quality is important. More so than quantity! So why is it that certain people do not want any friends? Is it because they are scared of what might happen? What if something good happens? I am sure that Jesus in all his glory was hesitant about those he chose as disciples. In fact he even told them after they had been his friend and disciple for a while, "One of you will betray me!" So he knew what was going to happen, yet he still gave us the model of community. So there is an importance in community, we just have to venture out and grab a hold of it and give to it. It being relationships. Who knows, it could be well worth it in the long run. That is what faith is all about right?
So I pray that we will reach out as a nation to a country that does not trust us. Even if we are turned down, that should not stop us from loving and praying for them.
This brings me to the topic at hand that has been racing around in my heart. I long for community. I also long for companionship. I get a lot of companionship through Harm and the boys. They are my life. But I desire community with other believers not just to have friends for the sake of saying, "I have a lot of friends." Far from it. Friends can let you down, they can manipulate you, they can deceive you and torment you. But we are to still love them. We are still to care for them and listen and serve with them. The reason I think friends are a good idea is that in times of trouble or trials, they should be there to help. At least good friends. Quality is important. More so than quantity! So why is it that certain people do not want any friends? Is it because they are scared of what might happen? What if something good happens? I am sure that Jesus in all his glory was hesitant about those he chose as disciples. In fact he even told them after they had been his friend and disciple for a while, "One of you will betray me!" So he knew what was going to happen, yet he still gave us the model of community. So there is an importance in community, we just have to venture out and grab a hold of it and give to it. It being relationships. Who knows, it could be well worth it in the long run. That is what faith is all about right?
So I pray that we will reach out as a nation to a country that does not trust us. Even if we are turned down, that should not stop us from loving and praying for them.
Friday, March 28, 2008
Bad Hair Cuts and Redemption
Sins are like bad haircuts. It's hard to look at your self in the mirror. You try to cover them with a hat or up in a ponytail. You really don't want anyone to see you in the present state, so you avoid broadcasting your presence in a group or avoid any confrontation at all. But hair will grow back. You can start over with a new pallet. Starting over is not hard, you just have to avoid getting a bad hair cut again. You rethink how you want it to be cut. You research it, study others hair style, and really think it through.
Sin is similar in that when you do sin, you want to cover it up. You don't want anyone to know especially God. Some sins do not seem to effect you as others do. But then again there are those times of shame and guilt that drive you nuts. But God calls us to put an end to all sin. In his eyes, Sin is Sin!! But we always seem to put it in categories of severity. Sin is all around us, and none of us can avoid it. It is our nature. Let he who has no sin cast the first stone. No one can throw that stone, that I know.
But the cool thing is, like a bad hair cut, you get to start over when you sin. Asking forgiveness and repenting helps get you back on track. Jesus Christ took on the burden of all our sins when he was crucified. He died a horrendous death just for us. He was WITHOUT sin. The only person ever like that. When you think about what he did for us, you can only wonder why he would do that. Because he loved GOD. He loved YOU. And He loved ME. Everyone was under his love. When we confess our sins and repent (turn away from our evil ways) to God, he can dwell in us forever. This doesn't mean to keep sinning, but that we show that we trust God to forgive us and it also shows that we have full faith in him. That we weak and in need of his strength and love. That we admit we don't have it all together and that we are fully dependent on Him. He gives us a chance to start over, just like when our hair grows back out. Have you had a bad hair cut lately? Do you need to start over?
Sin is similar in that when you do sin, you want to cover it up. You don't want anyone to know especially God. Some sins do not seem to effect you as others do. But then again there are those times of shame and guilt that drive you nuts. But God calls us to put an end to all sin. In his eyes, Sin is Sin!! But we always seem to put it in categories of severity. Sin is all around us, and none of us can avoid it. It is our nature. Let he who has no sin cast the first stone. No one can throw that stone, that I know.
But the cool thing is, like a bad hair cut, you get to start over when you sin. Asking forgiveness and repenting helps get you back on track. Jesus Christ took on the burden of all our sins when he was crucified. He died a horrendous death just for us. He was WITHOUT sin. The only person ever like that. When you think about what he did for us, you can only wonder why he would do that. Because he loved GOD. He loved YOU. And He loved ME. Everyone was under his love. When we confess our sins and repent (turn away from our evil ways) to God, he can dwell in us forever. This doesn't mean to keep sinning, but that we show that we trust God to forgive us and it also shows that we have full faith in him. That we weak and in need of his strength and love. That we admit we don't have it all together and that we are fully dependent on Him. He gives us a chance to start over, just like when our hair grows back out. Have you had a bad hair cut lately? Do you need to start over?
Monday, March 24, 2008
Affraid of the Dark
There are a few times in my life that I have been so afraid of something, that I couldn't control myself. When I was around 7 or 8, I was disturbed by the thought of Tornadoes. When I was in my teens, I was scared of failing a grade. Now in my late 20's, I am rarely afraid of anything. That is with the exception of; not being a great Dad/Husband, not being a great worker, and not being a full on Christian. With that in mind, I thought a little about what puts fear into us. I believe it is the fact that we are not in control of our lives and that scares us. If we were in total control, we wouldn't need God.
Both of my boys have there fears. Some are surreal, some are silly, and some are very logical. Sam is very scarred of the dark. Ashton is deathly scarred of the roaring lion at the beginning of Metro Godwin movies. He actually analyzes movie boxes to see if they have the logo. He pays attention to them and knows if it is Disney, Fox, or any other movie box.
Both of my boys have there fears. Some are surreal, some are silly, and some are very logical. Sam is very scarred of the dark. Ashton is deathly scarred of the roaring lion at the beginning of Metro Godwin movies. He actually analyzes movie boxes to see if they have the logo. He pays attention to them and knows if it is Disney, Fox, or any other movie box.
What can I say, the kids quirky! Anyways, the point is this, we all have hidden fears in us. Sometimes the fear is something we know is about to happen, or we are expecting to happen, or the fear is unknown, unannounced unnoticed. We walk everyday with this fear inside whether we know it or not. Sometimes when we least expect it, this fear attacks our system and we are left helpless and vulnerable. It is how we cope with this fear that helps us resolve the issue. It may stem from a previous experience, and experience that someone else has had, or something that we conjure up in our own imagination. Regardless, we have to do something with our fear. The bible speaks of a man named David who slayed a giant with nothing more than a sling and a rock. I don't know about you, but I would be pretty damn scarred of a 8 foot tall guy coming at me with a giant sword!! I am sure all of those in his village had the same sentiments, or else they would have backed him a little better. There are many stories that come from this. Moses was not so sure that he could deliver his people from Egypt, Jesus even asked God if there was another way the crucifixion could go down without he himself dying. But it all happened for God's purpose. And none of it would have happened if these people did not do what God asked, regardless of their fears and hang ups. I guess what I am saying is that I hope we all can sooner than later come to a point where we just trust God when he puts something on our hearts no matter how scary the outcome could be. This is when I think we will have the most breakthrough, and break out of old habits, break free from being oppressed, thinking unworldly.
By the way, the biggest thing I am afraid of in this life is that I am disappointing to God. I know I am at times, but it is time to change for us all. I KNOW Jesus Loves Me!!!!
Thursday, March 20, 2008
The Stone Was Rolled Away
This week has been a remembrance of what Jesus stands for in our lives. As we sit back and reflect upon the unthinkable action he took for us, I hope that we remember what it means to be a believer and a follower of Christ. God has made it clear to me that my life is to be used as a reflection of Christ. What does that mean to me? What does that mean to you? Does it mean we are to be perfect? No. We are not perfect, but a product of perfect love. Does that mean that we hang on a cross? Not necessarily. But it does mean to die. Die?!!!?!!!? What does it mean to die? To me, it is literal, but also figurative. To die to OUR dreams, to die to OUR desires. To serve others and not expect to be served.
Matt 20: 28 For even the Son of Man came not to be served but to served.
When we discover that, it brings true freedom. It is hard sometimes, especially when the person or people you are to serve are enemies. But I think that this will truly bring change to the World, the Church, and all humanity. If we could all live in the harmony and peace that God wants us to, there would be an end to poverty, broken homes, broken bones, and blood shed.
Mark 8:35 If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake and the sake of the Good news, you will save it.
It is plain and simple. This World offers us what? A better house, a better car, a better job, a better way. But this is only temporary. Eventually, the house is going to fall down, the car is going to blow up, and the job is going to disappear. But God is eternal, infinite, and everlasting. There is NO end to His beauty. There is NO end to His Grace. There is NO end to His love!! Take up your cross and lose your life. Forget about the fame, the notarioty, the fortune, the Stuff. Serve others, teach about the Gospel, fill the needs in your community, create a community. Stand up against consumerism! Stand up against racism, predudice, hate, oppresion, and sexual imorality! Rise up oh people Rise. Let the nations say Our King Has Risen!!! The Stone Was Rolled Away!!!!!!
Peace
Benjammin ><>
Matt 20: 28 For even the Son of Man came not to be served but to served.
When we discover that, it brings true freedom. It is hard sometimes, especially when the person or people you are to serve are enemies. But I think that this will truly bring change to the World, the Church, and all humanity. If we could all live in the harmony and peace that God wants us to, there would be an end to poverty, broken homes, broken bones, and blood shed.
Mark 8:35 If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake and the sake of the Good news, you will save it.
It is plain and simple. This World offers us what? A better house, a better car, a better job, a better way. But this is only temporary. Eventually, the house is going to fall down, the car is going to blow up, and the job is going to disappear. But God is eternal, infinite, and everlasting. There is NO end to His beauty. There is NO end to His Grace. There is NO end to His love!! Take up your cross and lose your life. Forget about the fame, the notarioty, the fortune, the Stuff. Serve others, teach about the Gospel, fill the needs in your community, create a community. Stand up against consumerism! Stand up against racism, predudice, hate, oppresion, and sexual imorality! Rise up oh people Rise. Let the nations say Our King Has Risen!!! The Stone Was Rolled Away!!!!!!
Peace
Benjammin ><>
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Sunshine Bear!!
Well, it has been a while since my last post. Not a lot has happened in my world. Sammy is doing great, Ash is doing great, Harm is awesome as usual. Everything seems wonderful. Why is it that I sometimes feel incomplete? I really enjoy my life, but I still feel I should be doing more. God has really opened my heart to many wonderful things. He as shown us a new Church organization that we feel a connection with. I really feel that this is a place for us to be now. But I have been shown and have read that Church is not an organization or creed. It is a relationship with Christ that we should be seeking. We are to BE the Church by the way we live, the way we treat people, and the way we walk in our daily life. There are times when I want to quit, yet at other times I just can't get enough of God's grace love and understanding. Sounds like an Elvis Costello song. Oh that is Peace Love and Understanding. Let's face it, my job (place of employment) is not the greatest. It is not glamorous by any means. I don't make what most consider a very good income in this world. But the fact of the matter is, I am very independent in this position. I get to leave early on Fridays, and I have many chances throughout the day to Worship and witness to many people. Seems sometimes though, I would just rather be quiet, keep to myself and not be interested in others. I want to run through the plant proclaiming how much God loves us all and that, there is more to life than work, eat, sleep, repeat!!! I mean, if we were to put more effort in serving others, we would have much more to do than this model. I know I will not be in this position forever, but some days..
My wife is going to school to be a teacher. She is sooo awesome!! I am very excited for her and supportive. I really feel that this is her calling. I am very positive that God wants her in there with the little heathens to show them love, attention, and to support their learning process. It is going to be hard, but she is very smart and passionate about this so I know she will succeed. There is such a need for the Church to really emphasize kids in the ministry. They should be included in everything that we do. I feel that it is important to teach them at an early age about grace, love, faith, and forgiveness. They are certainly going to need these four things to get through the teen years and the rest of life. This World is so corrupting and spiteful that if we are not careful, we could loose them. We should be teaching them now what they need for their future so that this World can change. If God doesn't come back in my lifetime, I would sure like to see my kids generation take charge of their World, and to be 100 times more faithful than I am. But I am afraid that our time here on Earth is limited. This is not a bad thing for believers in Christ, but others are doomed.
I pray for this World that God would reveal himself to them, and that they would accept his everlasting grace and love. Not in a single person but in the whole Church body. We don't need another discipline, creed, Church fund raiser, or 10 step program. We need God and we need to show people our God.
My wife is going to school to be a teacher. She is sooo awesome!! I am very excited for her and supportive. I really feel that this is her calling. I am very positive that God wants her in there with the little heathens to show them love, attention, and to support their learning process. It is going to be hard, but she is very smart and passionate about this so I know she will succeed. There is such a need for the Church to really emphasize kids in the ministry. They should be included in everything that we do. I feel that it is important to teach them at an early age about grace, love, faith, and forgiveness. They are certainly going to need these four things to get through the teen years and the rest of life. This World is so corrupting and spiteful that if we are not careful, we could loose them. We should be teaching them now what they need for their future so that this World can change. If God doesn't come back in my lifetime, I would sure like to see my kids generation take charge of their World, and to be 100 times more faithful than I am. But I am afraid that our time here on Earth is limited. This is not a bad thing for believers in Christ, but others are doomed.
I pray for this World that God would reveal himself to them, and that they would accept his everlasting grace and love. Not in a single person but in the whole Church body. We don't need another discipline, creed, Church fund raiser, or 10 step program. We need God and we need to show people our God.
