Affraid of the Dark

There are a few times in my life that I have been so afraid of something, that I couldn't control myself. When I was around 7 or 8, I was disturbed by the thought of Tornadoes. When I was in my teens, I was scared of failing a grade. Now in my late 20's, I am rarely afraid of anything. That is with the exception of; not being a great Dad/Husband, not being a great worker, and not being a full on Christian. With that in mind, I thought a little about what puts fear into us. I believe it is the fact that we are not in control of our lives and that scares us. If we were in total control, we wouldn't need God.

Both of my boys have there fears. Some are surreal, some are silly, and some are very logical. Sam is very scarred of the dark. Ashton is deathly scarred of the roaring lion at the beginning of Metro Godwin movies. He actually analyzes movie boxes to see if they have the logo. He pays attention to them and knows if it is Disney, Fox, or any other movie box.

What can I say, the kids quirky! Anyways, the point is this, we all have hidden fears in us. Sometimes the fear is something we know is about to happen, or we are expecting to happen, or the fear is unknown, unannounced unnoticed. We walk everyday with this fear inside whether we know it or not. Sometimes when we least expect it, this fear attacks our system and we are left helpless and vulnerable. It is how we cope with this fear that helps us resolve the issue. It may stem from a previous experience, and experience that someone else has had, or something that we conjure up in our own imagination. Regardless, we have to do something with our fear. The bible speaks of a man named David who slayed a giant with nothing more than a sling and a rock. I don't know about you, but I would be pretty damn scarred of a 8 foot tall guy coming at me with a giant sword!! I am sure all of those in his village had the same sentiments, or else they would have backed him a little better. There are many stories that come from this. Moses was not so sure that he could deliver his people from Egypt, Jesus even asked God if there was another way the crucifixion could go down without he himself dying. But it all happened for God's purpose. And none of it would have happened if these people did not do what God asked, regardless of their fears and hang ups. I guess what I am saying is that I hope we all can sooner than later come to a point where we just trust God when he puts something on our hearts no matter how scary the outcome could be. This is when I think we will have the most breakthrough, and break out of old habits, break free from being oppressed, thinking unworldly.

By the way, the biggest thing I am afraid of in this life is that I am disappointing to God. I know I am at times, but it is time to change for us all. I KNOW Jesus Loves Me!!!!