Blessings and Failures

I was just thinking the other day while I was mowing my yard of how much I love my kids, my wife, and my life. I am truly and wonderfully blessed. It is wonderful being a Dad because you get to share so much with your kids and teach them. I so truly love them and care for them. My wife, well she is just amazing to me. She has a drive about her and a presence that is just so fulfilling. She deeply loves me and I deeply love her. No amount of riches can fulfill my hearts desire as what God has blessed me with.

I would be a liar if I didn't say that I have failed in this life. At times, I have been very disappointing to God, my wife, and I am sure my kids. But with those let downs, they have forgiven me. They still love me and care for me. It didn't justify my actions or lack thereof, but I have trusted in God's love and grace in times of trials and circumstance to get me through it. I have done well and then fallen. Got back up, and fall again. But the one true thing through the whole process is that I didn't give up. I will NEVER give up. God has a plan for me. It is great!! Not "I am a Super Star" great, but a triumphant, blessed, disciplined great. It is not about my works, my devotion time, my church life that I get God's love or attention. But it is my faith in him. My passion to serve, my love for him, and my commitment to do his will. I am not perfect, I am a sinner. But I am saved by his grace alone. He is the love of my life. Though I will sin and fall short from time to time, he is there to bring me back to him. It is his love for me that keeps me on track not what I can do, but what he can do through me. God give me the strength I need to keep pressing forward to do your will and to know that it is not my will, but yours that is done. For all of you who I have let down, or sinned against, I am sorry. I ask for your forgiveness and that we would encourage each other to receive the greatness that God has for us.

Your Brother in Christ,
Ben